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五万四千里的自己，十万八千里的梦想。

终究还没遇上我想遇见的自己。虽然曾在梦里见过那个我朝思暮想的我，然而却怎么追也追不到，赶也赶不上。

梦如人生，人生如梦 4

近来耳闻的自杀事件，不免让人感慨万分。然而感叹的群众，却存在着平时都盲目参与施压却浑然不知的草木愚夫。

忧郁症难道就只能是一无所有之人的特权吗？比别人拥有更多的能力，财富，名望，经验之者，难道就连做人基本难过的权利都没有了吗？当这类人心情不好想发泄一番时，周遭的人总会指责说做人理应知足常乐。那些自称为心直口快，其实却只是缺乏同理心的人啊，不要以你们自己的无知去评论别人的感受。为什么有些人会选择在巅峰时期结束自己的生命？因为不是每一种伤别人能懂，不是每一种痛别人能体会。毕竟每个人的心底，都有自己的痛苦与挣扎。钟铉，Chester Bennington都是把世界看在眼底的名人，可是或许就因为他们今时今日所拥有的身份及地位，却也让他们丧失了某些普通人可以享有的基本权利。

你们的痛，我明白，安息吧。

Year End Review – 2017

And so…this is the summary of how I waved goodbye to 2017:

• Dined at a classy Chinese Restaurant that looks impressive but the food was fairly below expectation.
• Watched the movie “Jigsaw” at the cinema. (Facepalm…a horror movie to wrap-up the year?!) 
• Instead of having some drinks as initially discussed, a colleague and I ended up having King Prawns & Octopus platter, Escargot, Cheesecake and Pana Cotta on the table.
• Rather than mingling with the crowd, we headed straight back home almost immediately after the countdown. (Our bed has been summoning us…)
• Not forgetting the last kind gesture I received this year where I was spared from carrying a bag of goods meant for an exchange, as the kind storekeeper has thoughtfully offered to me a gift card instead.

All in all, it has been a challenging yet wonderful 2017. It was another year which I have deliberately lived without having any official resolution. Nonetheless the twists and turns in life have challenged me with another big leap of faith, and had miraculously brought me to this Nordic land of Finland.

Despite all the hardships during the transition period, I am at least happily enjoying my cups of coffee now, cherishing the flexibility of working hours, getting busier but advancing my knowledge while working with a boss whom I could admire and respect.

After letting my life flow freely for the past two years, I guess it is now the time to pick up the shattered pieces beneath my soul and to pursue my objectives with complete strength. I must be back in control to be the person whom I have wanted to be. I will now count on 2018 to be a better one.